I let Edward call before agreeing to meet him the next Saturday
evening, his only night off. He asked to go for a ride in his Porsche but
afraid to be alone in his car with him I suggested meeting at a safe place for
dinner. He suggested Michael's a French seafood restaurant with a theater next
door so we could also go to a movie he wanted to see.
With Edward’s phone calls hubby and I argued on the weekend we had together. At our work day breakfasts I was sullen. I created issues, got cross over little things but of course it was only blame shifting. The truth was my comparing him to Edward.
Saturday afternoon after household
duties completed, I announced I was going out to dinner. He was taken aback and
wanted to know what, where and why. Instead I replied I was just meeting a guy
from work who invited me to have dinner.
“What’s the matter? You’re not jealous, are you? It’s just dinner. I can go to a dinner can’t I?”
I pretended to seek his approval but was going with or without it. Confused and unsure he asked.
"Who is he?"
"Just a guy from work. We talk at lunch. I ran into him at the Mall and he asked me to dinner. We talk about books. I am going because you want me to be sociable. You want me to go swinging and then get jealous about seeing a guy and talking about books while eating? You don’t want to go swinging."
"Who is he?"
I replied in a terse tone as if to
start an argument.
"You’re jealous as expected. Well now I am going. It's too late to change. It’s just dinner and a movie!"
"Be back by 10."
He was avoiding an argument but also
thinking of swinging and assumed this would promote a second attempt. I didn't
tell about the phone calls. It never occurred to him I could be jealous of him.
He asked where I was meeting as I dressed. I
fibbed and said Denny's to keep him from snooping. He had to take care of the
kids but I was afraid he would drive by or even enter Michael's with them. I
told him if he was going to ask questions it was obvious he was too jealous and
to forget swinging but I was still going. This kept him quite but still
insisting I be home by 10 PM.