Oh my god! I am about to propose to Tommie and I get this text from Amber. Her name was Amber Layne, she is 26 years old.
Amber is this chick I was kicking it with for a couple months. We werenít in a relationship but we were real cool. I guess you can say we had growing feelings, but all that changed when I got that call about Tommie. Tommie always had my heart, and honestly no matter what relationship I end up in Tommie will always have a place in my heart. Amber and I werenít on the best of terms anymore, as far as friendship wise. She couldnít understand why I needed to make sure Tommie was okay. There was nothing that could stop me and it wasnít like we were in a relationship anyways. So I decided to do what I had to do; I left. Soon after I left she sent a text that said ďIf you leave, donít worry about coming backĒ. I responded and said ďI wish you could understand, but if thatís your wish I hope we can be friends again later in lifeĒ.
I guess that message was suppose to make me stay. I felt bad for a while but I had left Tommie once and I couldnít do it a second time. Truth is the way I felt about Tommie, Amber and I had no chance at a real relationship. I just didnít want to tell her that. Thatís the main reason I didnít want to get too serious with her. There was nothing I could do at this point. The damage was done. Amber was a wonderful girl, but she just wasnít the one for me.
I really wanted to erase this message and pretend like I never got it, But if this baby came out to be mines later on I donít think I could live with myself. I just have to face reality. But how in the world was I going to tell Tommie?? I couldnít propose to her now, it would never work. How can I fix this? How?? Why me?? Man!! Tommieís footsteps interrupted my thoughts. I could barely hear her voice over my thumping heart beat.
HELLO!!! Tommieís voice grew louder. It startled me so much that I started to stutter.
Shawn: Hey, Hey there! I said through a half smile.
Tommie: Hey I thought I lost you there for a min.
Shawn: Yea I was just thinking
Tommie: on the ground?? And what were you thinking about that tough because I called your name a few times.
Shawn: (noticing I was on the ground, I quickly jumped to my feet) Oh, I uhh dropped my phone smh being clumsy. I was just thinking about what we were going to eat today. Letís go!
Tommie: sure, whatever. I want some Coney! Letís go to Asians I need some eggrolls!
We jumped in the car but no matter how I kept trying to take my mind off Amber and this new possibility of a baby, I just couldnít. She ended up sending me another message that said
Amber: I need you to stop by so we can talk about this.
She sent another one that said
I had no choice but to respond, and I said
Amber: Iím scared.
Shawn: Stay calm, everything is going to be okay, Iíll be over in 30 mins.
Iím not sure how I managed to tell her that when I didnít believe it myself.
As Tommie turned the radio up, I sank deeper and deeper into my thoughts! My thoughts over powered her singing of Amy Whine houseís Rehab.
I pulled up to the Coney and let Tommie go in, I wasnít in the mood to eat or listen to Tommieís music at this moment. I had to figure out a plan and fast. So I decided to text my boy Roy.
Imessage: 911!!! Help me!!
Imessage Roy- Say no more!!
Roy called me and I put him hip to the situation, I told him everything, how I was about to propose to Tommie and Amber could be pregnant with my child, and he just couldnít believe it. I had no more time to explain anything else because Tommie was heading to the car.
Shawn: Tommie, I have to run and pick up Roy, his tire blew off, and Iím going to have to drop you off at mama house.
She seemed a little ticked off, but I didnít have time for that. I had to make my way to Amber house ASAP. The only way to get her out the car was to make it seem like an emergency. She hated hanging with me around my friends. She was always bored, so I knew I could get rid of her then.
That didnít seem so smart, I guess I shouldíve told her the truth, but I needed to talk to Amber first. There was no way that Iím going to tell Tommie about this myth of a baby until I know whatís going on. Tommie would kill me AND Amber. (That was my first mistake)
Tommie: (suspiciously) Nah! Drop me off at Kasey house.
As we drove over to Kasey (one of her school friends) house; I noticed her head deep into her phone. I wonder who she was texting and about what. Oh well I told myself, I have got to stay focus. The sooner I get her out the better. We pulled up to Kaseyís house and Tommie didnít say bye she just slammed my door and walked to get in the car with Kasey. I pulled off as fast as I could. I hit the corner and never looked back. I picked up my phone and dialed Amber. When she answered I told her I was 10 minutes away and that we needed to talk. She said okay and we hung up. I turned the radio up and low and behold they had to be playing the song that best suited my situationÖ. CONFESSIONS- USHERÖ.. This was really my situation, accept Tommie doesnít know yet.
I heard a vibrating sound in the car, I checked my phone and it wasnít mine. The sound started going off again, I turned down the radio and looked to my right and there was Tommieís phone sitting in the seat. I thought it was her calling to tell me she left it, but when I picked it up it read Gavin with a heartÖ
WHO IS GAVIN??!!
Best believe I'm going to get to the bottom of Gavin but it seemed like everything was trying to get in the way of me figuring out my situation! I have to stay focus!
*Back at Kaseyís house*
Kasey- Hey Girl!!
Tommie- Hey Boo! Iím so irritated!
Kasey- Why? What happen?? You just got home
Tommie- My Point! Girl, he was just way too distracted. Then all of sudden he had to drop me off because Roy needed him. I donít believe that at all.
Kasey- Well what you want to do?
Tommie: Girl somethingís up! We are going to get to the bottom of this TODAY! Follow him!
Kasey: I might lose him he pulled off so fast.
Tommie: Donít worry Ö Iím following his location. He made a left on joy road and a left on Southfield freeway!
Kasey- But how do you know that?
Tommie- Because If he is going to Royís house thatís the way to go
Kasey- I would feel much more secure, if we followed the location
Tommie checked into her purse but couldnít find her phone. She kept searching and searching. She dumped everything out but still there was no phone to be found.
*GASP* KASEY I LEFT MY PHONE!!!! OH NOOOOO